Summer is winding down and it's weird. This summer has been pretty great, I got to hang out with a lot of friends, went to some awesome shows, went to the beach.... but I wish I did more. I was really hoping to make it out to California and see something completely different. That kind of different scenery, something far from the day-to-day repetitive existance is what I really want right now.

I have this idea in my head of where I want to be and I'm not sure how to get there.

I'm hoping I can come fully out of this shell this final semester of college and that it leads to some great things happening. It feels like I'm coming to the end of young adulthood; being able to just go where the wind blows, and that's kind of scary. Probably my biggest fear is that I won't meet new people after college. I have great friends, but that's both the best thing someone could ask for and a downfall. If I don't learn to reach out to new people, how can I expect to find the future I'm looking for?

It's time to take my guard down, let everything happen naturally, and really let go of everything I convinced myself of for so long about everything... literally, everything.

I just had this thought:

Is life about completing goals, or is it about enjoying yourself?

I know a lot of people that easily can be put under one of those two categories, and of course some that overlap. But it seems that people view the purpose of life as primarily one of those. It seems that guides their behavior. I just thought that was a really interesting thought.

I started thinking about it because I'm not sure which category I fall in. Right now, I'm really concerned about where my life is going. I want the band to really, really, get it together. I feel we're approaching that point where we make a move or we start getting annoyed. We've written a bunch of songs, and if they don't get recorded and released as an actual album, I don't think it will last. It's been the downfall of every band I've been in. I feel like we will definitely need a bass player, which presents another world of issues. There's a lot that we need to do to get to where we need to be, and I'm honestly not sure we'll get there.